Younger people sometimes last longer and a rare few like Steven Hawking live for over fifty years as an invalid in a wheelchair and bed.
I am already into it well over a year and a half and possibly two years.
I wish it to be less and not more.
The clock is ticking.
All of your muscles slowly quit and you become unable to talk or breath or eat or cough or move your entire body.
Your mind stays intact.
You lay there like a vegetable with people wiping your ass and peeing through a tube or wearing a diaper and being fed through a tube and breathing through another tube.
You can stare at a computer screen and twitch your cheek muscle and speak like that with an artificial voice saying whatever the screen says as you direct that with words of choice and cheek and eye movement.
That's all you have left until you don't even have that.
Morphine towards the last if you choose it or choose to live that long.
I don't want to live that long.
People with debilitating illness like this are forced to make that decision to live or die.
A lot of people choose not to go on life support.
Some take their own lives.
I plan on taking a long swim that I don't survive.
You got to do it before it's to late or you are unable to do anything.
It's pointless to survive past a certain point.
All said I have had a good life.
It could have been better and I could have done better but I didn't and it's to late now.
I would change a million things in the past if I had the power but I have none.
The future I have left and living right now is a privilege just being alive like life always is.
The birds chirp and the children laugh and play.
Young love blooms and the old smile and wave.
Babies are born and old people die.
The cycles of life.
Gifts to every living thing plant or animal or creatures and human being or thing.
Life is a vibrant and wonderful thing.
Every species has it's own ways.
Human beings imagine and build a lot of things.
Most species build nests and breed and mate and make young some sort of way.
Life and existence is so extraordinary and the earth such a wonder and the sky and the stars and and the sun and the moon.
The oceans and water and land of all terrains.
Seasons and landscapes and all living things.
There are no explanations of how this came to be.
No other species even considers such a thing.
They simple exist and follow their instincts however their environment and senses lead them.
Everything loves being alive we can be sure of that and do what they can to prosper and live and breath and have offspring.
Everything lives until it's time or mishap occurs.
My dad and sister died young.
My mother lived to be old.
I just turned seventy three and don't expect to see seventy four.
I wish and hope I could and there is a slight chance I will but pretty slight would be my guess.
My arms are getting weaker and my body in general although I do pretty well.
I'm really enjoying my life and would want more.
I'm trying to make a better world for my loved ones and everybody in this world.
My discovery could help a lot but remains mostly unheard.
It's the most important discovery ever known to man or the universe and could stop us from destroying all life and the earth itself and every living thing but it remains unheard.
Manmade stimulants are at the core of everything but nobody knows it or will believe.
They believe in imaginary gods and devils but won't believe what is real and the truth in my discovery.
It's a human nature thing exaggerated and distorted by all all the stimulants we consume both knowingly and unknowingly.
Our demise is a certainty if we don't do something.
It's the rich christians that are destroying everything.
The ones that don't think they are rich.
They are a bunch of murderers and they don't know that either.
Stimulated out of their heads and minds on sugar and corn syrup and highbred carbohydrates and caffeine and alcohol and nicotine and amphetamines and methamphetamines and viagra and cocaine.
Highbred wheat and milk and juice and honey.
Marijuana in another shit category.
All these manmade stimulants have turned man into these waring killing warmongering superior killing monsters of women and children and babies and they don't know it.
Christians and their guns and bombs and ruling and killing superiority and greed for self and all knowing..
Thinking all the while they are loving and caring..
They have it all..
They have everything..
What can we do about the Christian Fools and the Marijuana Fools and the Queer LGBTQPPP Fools.
All of them not knowing it.
They are all innocent but that does not stop them from destroying our children and the planet earth.
What can we do about.
Each of us can stand our ground and realize what has happened and what is happening and try to do something about it.
They are destroying themselves and everybody around them but we can do nothing about it.
Nature will destroy them eventually like it always has but there will be nothing left because of the stimulants and where they have taken us to and what it has left behind.
This simple realization right here could change all this if we could or would simply get this message out.
The British are Coming The British are Coming and the British are still here..
King James..
British Stockholm Syndrome..
You heard it all right here..
English
English speaking murderers..
Manmade stimulated insanity and manmade gods and demons and devils and killing babies and women and children.
All manmade warmongering from all of the stimulants we consume.
Taking everything and ruling the earth.
