Notice how just the word drinking means alcohol..
That's how ingrained alcohol is into our society and culture.
Have a drink..
Stopped for a drink..
I went to the grocery store to look at their "Mega Friday Meat Sale".
Not remembering in advance that they always have samples of food items going on at this time.
Danger Zone for a Junkie..
Junkie is a term for Heroin Addict.
Junk a new term for a mans genitals.
"My junk was hanging out".. etc
The english language is interesting.
Unique amongst the languages I am sure for a lot of reasons.
Developed throughout our thousands of years of stimulant drug history.
Just like drugs are shaping our language and use of words today.
Marketers and advertisers making the most of wordplay.
Mark Twain was a linguist of the highest degree.
His brother hired him as a typesetter for his first job I think.
Working for a newspaper company.
He thereafter spend his whole life observing language and print and its many aspects.
Words shape our intelligence.
You could say they are our intelligence.
Ever watch Donald Trump talk and express himself.
His facial and emotions and acting out..
How about Jeb Bush or Hillary Clinton.
Monkeys all of us..
Anyway I "chipped" last night or yesterday afternoon.
I went to the meat sale and instantly without thought reached for the meat samples of cut up polish sausage and ham slices.
Instantly I went for the cheese chunk samples and from there to the chips and dips samples and from there to the fudge samples and looked for the bakery samples and there were none and the juice samples and there were none.]
I circled these eating samples for about ten minutes until I got embarrassed of being seen and watched.
Then I went to the meat counter and bought five one pound packages of uncured bacon.
Sliced raw side pork and then five pounds of sliced bacon.
Both on sale.
The raw bacon $2.69 a pound and the bacon $2.99 a pound.
The bacon a no no.
I then circled and went by the ice cream looking at what I knew would be sales on ice cream.
$2.59 for half gallon tubs that are 1.5 or 1.75 nowadays instead of two quarts.
I didn't buy any.
I went home.
$33 worth of meat.
I froze everything except for two packagers I put in the refrigerator.
One of bacon and one of the raw sliced pork.
The bacon is going to taste good for a change.
I couldn't resist $2.99 a pound for thick sliced good quality bacon with lots of fat on it.
I was surprised that the samples with the fudge and wheat cracker chips and hard cheese samples and processed meat samples didn't "trigger" me more than they did.
I'm happy about that.
I think it's because I have been so clean for so long.
100% for months until this point.
I got my guard back up.
I got to be careful not to do it anymore and to not let the bacon trigger me further.
I weighted myself this morning and I'm that beautiful 260#.
Only 12 more pounds to that beautiful 248# I once was six or seven years ago.
From there it will be on down to 180#.
A 186# weight loss from 368# to 180#.
I got to be careful with this 'chipping" and not let it get me into a "stall".
A stall can be almost never ending if your not careful.
So much for the diet front..
Have a good day.
I fucked up.
Wish me well.
I bought a new/used clothes washer yesterday and brought it home.
$50 at the consignment store.
A pretty good deal if it works properly and it is supposed too.
Not sure how much I'm losing by not buying "Energy Star" new and saving on electricity.
I'm tight budgeting right now with all of the expense of a new well and septic tank system and replumbing my house and Christmas presents.
Have good day..