That's ninety five sixteen ounce Boneless Ribeye Steaks the first time two days ago and sixty seven more yesterday for a total of one hundred and sixty two Ribeye Steaks at six dollars each.
I bought all he had.
They are nice fat boneless ribeye steaks.
That's nine hundred and seventy two dollars if anybody is doing the math.
$972.00
He won't have them again until after the first of the year.
That's why I bought them all.
I have been desperately trying to break my carbohydrate bingeing.
They filled my small chest freezer to the top as well as my refrigerator top freezer.
Both of them.
Two steaks a day for close to three months straight.
Eighty one days actually.
Two months and three weeks if I eat them that way.
I'm never hungry when I'm eating good steaks.
I'll probably have other meat from time to time like hamburger and 100% ground pork and sometimes chicken or fish so the steaks will probably last until the end of this year.
Something like five months.
Or something near that.
The method to my madness being that I am fighting tooth and nail to quit bingeing on ice cream or corn on the cob or oranges or Chinese Buffets or anything else.
I'm trying to detox again and I'm having a hard time doing it.
So every time I get the overwhelming urge to binge on something I come home and fry a steak.
They are delicious and satisfying.
$12 a day if I eat two of them.
Say one sometime in the morning and another one later in the day.
They really taste great pan fried golden brown on both sides and then with salt and fresh ground black pepper and garlic powder after I cook them.
They make their own grease to fry in with some left over each time I fry.
Delicious.
It's hard to beat a good ribeye steak.
Water to drink.
I'm sure I will slay this dragon of bingeing this way.
Today will be day three.
I'm hoping my bowls and stomach and cholesterol all get better right away with this.
Cholesterol takes several months.
So that's the method to my madness.
I could have bought Cosco Ribeye Loins or Sam's Club Loins for about $8 a pound.
When I get richer I will do that.
These are almost as good.
Maybe even as good.
I know steaks and these are good.
Angus the butcher said.
Beautiful.
Vacuum sealed individually by himself.
I couldn't afford it but I did it anyway.
I got to eat and I can't eat on much less than ten dollars a day anyway.
So I'm spending about two dollars a day more to eat ribeyes.
I'm satisfied with that.
I keep one thawing in the refrigerator all the time.
They will keep for a day or two vacuum sealed like that if I eat something else.
Hamburger or something.
Onions and garlic and the low carb six vegetables and eggs I will eat as I choose too.
Nothing else ever.
Right now I'm sticking to zero carb getting this thing going.
If I waiver from this I binge.
I can't have that.
It will kill me.
I got to get this weight off and then maintain this way.
I feel great when I stay 100% on diet.
Also it's great for my health.
Win win.
I feel like shit when I don't and it will kill me.
Do the math..
I don't know if I am going to live or not but I'm trying.
It takes about 120 days to fully detox starting from scratch.
Mine usually takes a little less time because I have been fully detoxed before.
I'll have it going pretty good in a few weeks time and then about a month after that it will be going pretty good and get better and better after that.
I have done it a bunch of times.
I always feel great and function well.
The carbohydrate cravings are already subsiding quite a bit.
The steaks are my incentive to not say the hell with it and start bingeing again.
The steaks being something really good to eat.
Something exciting.
I never get tired of them.
Each one each time tastes great.
I'm not doing one meal a day right now.
I might do that later.
I'll probably look at zero salt and zero seasoning again too a little while down the road.
Being carbohydrate free feels great.
My health loves it.
Moderation doesn't work for me.
If I eat pancakes I want a dozen of them.
Ma used to fry pancakes until she would started hollering about it.
Me being an endless pit to something I loved.
Only sometimes though and I was never fat.
Never thin or skinny but never fat either.
One hundred and sixty five pounds was my early grown weight at sixteen years old.
I'm five foot nine and a half and average boned.
Five nine now that I'm older.
I had a twenty eight inch waist.
Now I'm a fifty inch waist and have been almost sixty.
I'm about 320# right now.
Just about double what I could be.
I would like to weigh 180#
I was down to 248#
Only 68# to lose then.
Oh well..
You are what you are and you do what you do.
Right now I'm detoxing.
Then I want to stay that way.
Forever.
Like alcohol and caffeine and nicotine and drugs and gambling.
Never one ever and no desire.
You couldn't put a gun to my head and get me do any one of them.
I hate them.
I totally dislike them.
Pure shit every one of them.
Life altering and life destroying.
And we think we like them.
We are addicted.
Hard core addictions.
Almost impossible to break.
Totally impossible to break if we don't even know we have them.
We rationalize it.
We fool ourselves..
We think we like these things.
That they are not really that bad..
In moderation of course..
Our addictions convince us of this..
Classic denial..
Self serving feeding our addictions.
To total destruction.
Look around you.
Take the blinders off.
You will see where we are headed.
Sit and watch people coming and going to and from the grocery stores and other stores.
Feeding frenzies constantly..
You and me and every single one of us.
Some with more control that's all.
Headed down the same path.
The path to total destruction.
Totally effected by these drugs.
Every one of us..
Planet earth..
The entire worlds population.
Processed sugars and corn syrup and hybrid carbohydrate plant life and milk and honey and wheat and caffeine and alcohol and nicotine.
Powerful stimulant drugs.
Powerful addictive stimulant drugs.
The reason for the imagined gods and war and fucked up sexualities.
Have a good day!
Amen