Good, bad or ugly.
Just these YouTube Video's like I did last year.
Me talking about all this stuff.
Some music if I can.
Interviews and lakeside scenery and people and dogs and wildlife and stuff like that if I can.
I got to work on my filming and editing skills.
You should get to see my progress almost daily.
Should be fun and rewarding and entertaining all at the same time.
I have great equipment, I just got to learn how to use it.
I parked the truck this year and went into full retirement so that I could devote full time to this endeavor.
I turned seventy years old in April of this year.
I'm treating it like it's almost now or never.
I have aspired to doing this for years.
I originally thought I would have my children and grandchildren in this with me.
It didn't turn out that way.
I might have years or months or decades left to live.
I don't know.
It's a complete unknown.
Pretty much like everybody else.
We don't know for sure.
The older you get and then how good you take care of your health and how good you took care of your health over the years and then how lucky you are and then whatever your gene pool gives you.
Environment is the most important I think.
What we eat and drink and take into our systems and bodies.
Mentally and physically and spiritually, all three.
Mind, body and soul.
You don't see a lot of old fat men.
Not grossly morbidly fat old men you don't.
I still weight close to 290# right now.
I'm five feet nine.
I'm a hundred pounds overweight or more.
Still down from my high of 370# in 2006 but 290# is still much to fat.
My heart won't take it.
These binges are really hard on me.
They could kill me.
You really take a shit kicking going from zero sugars and zero carbohydrates and fully detoxed for months at a time to bingeing heavily all at once on sugars and carbohydrates.
The high is good and the food tastes great but that is short lived.
Moderation does not work with addictions.
You do or you don't do.
Cigarettes, Caffeine, Alcohol, Sugar..
Try taking away that coffee drinkers cup of coffee.
Even just one.
Or the one drink or the one cigarette.
The depression and shipwreck that follows a binge is gut wrenching emotional and physical pain and heartache and suffering.
Many take their addictions all the way to the grave because of this.
It's damaging as hell and we all know it.
I don't binge that much and I don't binge that often but I pay a heavy price every time I do.
It's like an alcoholic going on a bender.
I did that a few times many years ago.
I have been on and off bingeing now for the last several months.
Ten days on and two days bingeing on average.
More often twenty days on diet 100% and a day or two bingeing.
Probably five binges of short duration in the last three or four months.
Before that about a year or more of almost 100% on diet.
I feel great when I'm on diet.
I feel like shit when I go off diet.
I have been 100% on diet about nine of these last ten years.
Probably more than that.
About nine and a half years of 100% on diet and six months total off diet and bingeing on sugars and carbohydrates and sometimes chocolate to go with it.
Almond Joy Candy Bars or Little Debbie Nutty Bars.
Mostly it's just ice cream these days.
No Almond Joys and No Nutty Bars.
Ice Cream is pure sugar and milk.
Everything else I have been off from for over eighteen years now.
I wish I could say that I have been off from everything for twenty eight years or thirty eight year or forever or that I had never touched anything ever.
Alcohol and caffeine and nicotine.
Shiploads of all three.
I never drank coffee or tea but I drank a lot of Coke and Pepsi and quite a bit of chocolate.
I smoked pot over the years and a little bit of speed.
Just like doctors meds.
All drugs are shit, including sugar and hybrid carbohydrates and alcohol and caffeine and nicotine.
Marijuana is probably the worst drug of them all.