Or it seems that way.
Addictions die hard.
If they die at all.
I know they die because I am no longer addicted to tobacco or gambling.
I was seriously addicted to both for most of my life.
I have been off from tobacco now for eighteen years and off from gambling for about twenty five years.
You couldn't put a gun to my head and get me to do either one of them again.
The rest of my addictions I have been free of for eighteen years and more.
Mostly caffeine, alcohol and marijuana.
Although I never really considered myself addicted to these I used them a lot.
Shortly after my granddaughter Babo was conceived I quit everything.
I put my foot down and said no more when my fifteen year old daughter got pregnant.
The baby due when she was close to sixteen.
I knew her and baby would need me and I would do everything possible to be there for them.
A beautiful baby girl came into this world seven months later, a full term baby.
My life began anew and it was the greatest thing that ever happened to me.
Food addiction and drink addiction is the worst of them all.
I just realized recently that when we go into the grocery store to get our meat and eggs that the smells from the bakery and produce and deli overwhelm us.
It sets our craving gears in motion.
Along with the visual.
Days or weeks later we cave in if we are not very carful and vigilant.
They sneak in on us.
We unwittingly partake thereof and are fucked once again.
This will go on forever if we let it.
Everybody addicted and hauling carts of carbohydrates and sugars and dairy and caffeine and in some cases alcohol and nicotine throughout the grocery store and coming and going.
Everybody seriously addicted and not knowing it.
Including the purveyors.
They think that it's just good food and drink that they like.
That's what I thought too..
I also thought it was natures food and a good thing..