Actually I love the binging.
It's just that I hate what it does to me.
Weight wise and everything else.
The high that comes from eating ice cream feels and tastes wonderful.
The sugar and carbohydrate cravings that come with it are not wonderful.
I always overdo it in a compulsive eating disorder kind of way.
A gallon of ice cream at a sitting sometimes.
Days on end sometimes.
I regain the weight that it took many months to lose in a matter of days.
It's like beating my head against the wall.
Going on ten years now.
I'm sure it's bad for my health and might kill me.
This type of compulsive binge eating came only after I went low carb and sometimes zero carb.
Starting in 2006.
Mostly high fat, moderate protein, low carb
HFLC they call it.
High fat low carb.
Atkins Induction 1972
The one I like the best is zero carb with nothing but fat meat and eggs and nothing else.
Water to drink.
I lost most of my weight on low carb.
The problem I got is that my sugar and hybrid carbohydrate addiction keeps drawing me back.
A lot of people don't have as big a problem with this as I do.
I am an emotional eater.
Anything goes wrong and I eat.
It feels so good and is so good for my health being sugar and hybrid carbohydrate free is what keeps drawing me back.
That and knowing that it is natures way and natures perfection for perfect health both mind and body.
Emotions and senses and feelings.
I believe fully in everything I say and know it to be the truth.
That doesn't mean that we become this different person after a lifetime of being addicted to sugar and hybrid carbohydrates and caffeine and alcohol and nicotine.
It just means that we are no longer feeding these addictions and ruining our health in the process.
Nothing feels better or is better for our health than being fully detoxed and 100% addiction free.
I wouldn't trade it for anything and will soon be back there.
I got Ribeye Steaks thawed.
About $25 worth of them to get me started again.
About 3 1/2# in the four steaks.
$7 a pound.
I want to go zero carb and zero salt and zero seasonings again but I'm afraid to do it.
After several months and feeling great I always end up binging after an emotional crises or something.
Sometimes it just slips in.
The same with zero carb but with salt and seasonings.
The same thing.
The same thing with low or low low carb.
The same thing.
I always end up binging.
It is really hard on me.
I'm going to try to force myself onto zero carb and zero salt and zero seasonings right now.
It's tough early on but it has it's rewards.
Bordom is the problem.
With salt and seasonings there is no boredom.
Monotony is another one.
All brought on by my sugar and hybrid carbohydrate addictions.
The Land of a Thousand Addictions
Why not moderation you say.
I did that and that is what worked best for me but I can't get it back.
Heroin is almost impossible to get off from.
Most of the people that say they do were never really full blown addicts in the first place.
They are pretending to be as a badge of honor.
They the ones that did it all.
But not really though.
They are just convincing themselves of that.
Heroin is almost impossible to break.
Sugar and hybrid carbohydrates come close to that.
The world's dilemma..
Sugar, hybrid carbohydrate plant life, dairy, caffeine, alcohol, nicotine, marijuana, gambling, cocaine, amphetamines, pharmaceuticals.
Ritalin and Adderall.
All of them.
I whipped them all easily except for sugar and carbohydrates.
Going on twenty years now..
Sucrose, lactose and fructose..
Deadly powerful addictive stimulant drugs..
Completely unnatural to man and all manmade..
Nature provides about one ten thousandth of what we are eating and drinking.
That's a little bit of a stretch but a thousand to one isn't.
A hundred to one..
Whatever it is the concentrations we now consume make them powerful stimulant drugs, right along with all the rest of this shit.
Water and meat are good food.
Natures food even though livestock is not nature either.
It's all we got.
Seven and a half billion people cannot live on wild game and fish and seafood and birds and whatnot.
Bugs and worms and reptiles etc etc etc.
Not any more.
We are headed for total destruction and there is nothing we can do about it.
Stimulated out of our minds and never once knowing it.
I am the only one that knows all this shit.
How can I not bring this forward.
Even if nobody cares or nobody wants to do anything about it or even believes any of this..
I care and I will try.
We can make a better world with this for our children and the worlds children.
There is no other way.
Nothing else will work.
This could possibly buy us time.
Time for more generations to try to improve on this.
This stimulated insanity road we are on sure doesn't answer anything.
This is the only answer there is.
It answers everything.
You could say I discovered "it".
Sounds stupid but that's what it is..
What happened and how we got to where we are at and where we are going.