Look at the eyes.
I'm using the above video as a case study in trying to describe the adrenaline like state of high that we all live in because of our stimulant drug consumption and where it leads us to.
Her's is over the top as are many.
"Through the looking glass".
I'm calling this.
Although it has nothing to do with Alice in Wonderland or Lewis Carroll or the tumbling down the tunnel or rabbit hole into never never land or whatever it is like in the fantasy.
Here the looking glass I'm referring to is a window we imagine we are looking through.
Something like a one way mirror, or two way or whatever they call it where the people on the other side cannot see through it and it appears to be a mirror to them or nothing at all but we people on this side see it as a window, an open window even where we can see them and everything plainly but they cannot see us.
The above video pointedly refers to the adrenaline state of paranoia and self consciousness.
This girl has been in treatment trying to cure this dilemma for something like ten years now I believe.
She's a great believer in meds and therapy treatments.
She's a vegetarian so she eats basically nothing but sugar.
Sugar and Carbs.
I'm not sure of her caffeine consumption, alcohol and nicotine.
Probably some or all three.
I know she has delved into marijuana and was a user of marijuana and other street drugs to some extent and at one time and still advocates marijuana use in moderation or occasionally to some extent.
Seen as a good thing by her.
She is currently not a steady user.
LSD and Speed, unknown.
I believe she is about twenty eight years old.
She is in constant therapy and on meds always.
The whole array of meds over the years.
Over ten years now or more in treatment.
She has struggled her way through collage and has a masters degree in humanities I think it is.
She lives in a constant state of struggle with her illness.
She is a paranoid schizophrenic in remission but has periodic episodes and setbacks.
She will never get well because of all the meds and the occasional use of marijuana and her diet of hybrid carbohydrates and sugar.
Like I say I have no idea about her caffeine and alcohol and nicotine consumption.
I wouldn't be surprised if all three are not to be factored in.
Some or all of the time.
All powerful drugs,
So what we probably got here is massive sugar and hybrid carbohydrate consumption on a continuous basis with the vegetarian diet along with a whole array of doctor prescribed medicines from time to time and everyday several times a day and then the occasional marijuana use along with whatever amounts of caffeine and alcohol and nicotine consumption.
She and tens of millions to hundreds of millions of others.
The entire planet earth.
Eight billion people.
So lets get back to the looking glass.
Here we are looking through the one way window at deer in a field.
Several of them, twenty of them.
It's a woodsy environment and we are unseen, unheard.
Bucks, doe, fawns, yearlings.
Maybe a dozen or twenty feeding in an open area about the size of a football field with woods all around and ponds and a creek and all of the other wildlife and trees and vegetation all around them.
Insects and wind and in the moonlight.
A beautiful night.
Bats in the air and chirping insects and birds in the distance.
A cool warm crystal-clear evening.
Clouds in the sky, the sun has just gone down but there is plenty of light.
Lots of light.
Almost like daylight.
A star filled sky night.
Beauty beyond compare.
Peaceful and tranquil.
We can see everything plainly.
The younger deer frolic and play, all of them contented and enjoying the eating and the air and their surroundings and being with their family and friends.
A herd of deer.
Twenty in all.
Going on for hours on end, endlessly.
A nightly ritual.
Peace on this earth.
Having been bedded down in the tall grass for most of the day in a swampy area away from predators as best can be.
As is done most days.
Deer are nocturnal for the most part.
Coming out to feed at night.
Beauty beyond compare.
A crystal clear night with the moon and stars and a soft breeze.
Everybody and everything contented and at ease.
For the most part.
A screech now and then as a owl catches a rodent and kills and eats it, a shuffling now and then as other creatures pass by and bugs get in ones eyes and ears.
Completely at ease but fully conscious, should a need arise.
A twig snaps curtly and loudly.
Everything at a standstill.
Ears are up and alert.
Scanning for sounds.
The eyes sharply acute to any movement.
Senses fully alert.
Should they run or slither quietly away.
Disappear into their surroundings into the forest and woods unseen and unheard.
Like a wisp of smoke.
Or is it a cougar coming in for a kill that inadvertently stepped on a twig and it snapped and they should bolt and run quickly.
All of the deers senses are acutely stimulated to alertness.
It's eyes dilated fully.
It's muscles ready for an instant run or a soft retreat.
Whatever is called for.
A squirrel appears.
Two of them.
One was chasing the other and jumping from tree to tree and a small branch had snapped as one nearly fell.
Grabbing quickly and rebounding.
The deer and other creatures had zeroed into the exact spot the squirrel were in.
They on alert at the sound of the twig having snapped.
Everything going cautiously back to normal now.
It was just the squirrels.
Making sure they art not mistaken and there is not something other than the squirrels going on.
All is well after a short while of making sure and everything slowly goes back to normal.
Back to feeding and breathing again like always.
The birds and the winds and the sounds and the smells wonderful beyond compare.
A beautiful existence.
Until the next time..
Their adrenaline had surged for this timespan and then went back to normal like it was supposed to do.
When we humans consume all of these stimulants we do, along with all of the other drugs and substances, our adrenaline glands unnaturally secrete and our senses are heightened unnaturally.
With all of this stimuli in our bloodstream and body chemistry we are constantly in this state of adrenaline like high.
It's all we have ever known since we began consuming all this shit.
All or some or one.
Any one of them is all it takes to upset natures balance.
Most of us consume many, constantly.
Our food and drink chain.
It's all manmade.
Even the hybrid fruits and vegetables.
Our recreational drug use.
Our coffee and tea and milk.
Our fruit and vegetables.
All manmade, grown, shipped and harvested.
Often times making us self conscious and with no way out.
But we don't know it.
Then we take meds.
It's a never ending cycle with no end..
.. Unless we get off from all drugs..
Then we can cure ourselves.
Nobody wants to do it.
We are all addicted to all of these drugs.
We refuse to believe.
We just like them.