My mom used to have me hang baskets on an old widow ladies door for May Day and in school we would do the May Day Pole Dancing..
Celebrating with a flower basket given to an old lady.
I always thought it was kind of dippy but I did it for ma and felt embarrassed doing it.
The old lady didn't like it that much either.
She was kind of a grouchy old bag.
That was about the time my ma was given amphetamines by her doctor trying to alleviate her depression after losing my sister Patty to a runaway fever and a doctor misdiagnosing the fever as appendicitis and operating and there was nothing wrong with her appendix.
(Mom hated the amphetamines she said they made her teeth grind and she flushed them down the toilet)
Patty died from the operation.
All in about eight hours time.
It about killed all of us.
Mom and dad and I..
I was six and she was eight.
Ma was about twenty six or twenty eight.
My real dad had died coming home from the war five or six years before that and moms dad died two years after that..
Patty died in 1952 or 1953
I was there for all three of them.
Four months old as a nursing baby and two years old as a toddler and six years old in the first grade in school.
I have known death and despair all my life.
We don't want it.
I have also known recovery and living and loving and laughter and joy of life and living.
That's what life is all about.
We don't want war.
Donald Trump and his sixty million Christian followers want war.
They are stark raving mad and don't know it.
They are also stimulated out of their minds and don't know that either.
They think everybody else is crazy.
That's how speed and stimulants work.
Pig headed greatness and all knowing superiority.
Looking and seeking an adrenaline rush and not knowing it.
The need to control and be best exaggerated by all of the man made stimulants flowing through our bloodstreams and we don't know it.
Reaching out as opportunity arises..
Natural instincts exaggerated beyond belief..
Never once knowing.
The waring instinct exaggerated a thousand times..
Man made unnatural stimulants..
Nowhere else in nature..
No other species..
Man and his stimulated mind..
Overly stimulated emotions and senses and instincts and feelings..
Man made stimulants..