I can't seem to beat this carbohydrate addiction and obesity on a permanent basis no matter what I do.
I lost one hundred and nineteen pounds once on low low carb.
That's been several years ago now.
Recently I lost sixty pounds on zero carb.
I regained the sixty pounds these last six months.
I'm only down forty eight pounds now from my original high of three hundred sixty eight pounds that I was in 2006 when I started this diet and made my discovery.
My lifelong sugar and carbohydrate addiction keeps drawing me back.
I was acutely addicted to cigarettes and thought that I could never break that habit but I did.
Nineteen years ago.
This food addiction is worse than that because I keep playing with it.
If I had done that with cigarette I never would have been able to stop smoking completely.
There are millions of people addicted to cigarettes.
Willingly they think.
They think they like them because they are feeding their addiction.
The same with caffeine and alcohol and all the rest of the addictions.
The group setting to breaking addictions seems to help.
AA and their God as you know him approach and 12 steps works for a lot of people.
The group setting and sponsors and all that.
Meetings and calling each other all the time and all that..
Commrads in arms..
I just now decided that I will write daily right here on this blog about my struggle to beat this addiction and what I am eating and how I feel about it.
Every single day from now until I die.
Nobody pays any attention to my "Discovery" aspect in all this anyway.
I just as well be writing about frogs or how water evaporates or something.
Nobody has any interest at all in what I'm saying.
I'm the "nut case" "out there" guy..
Saying and thinking such things..