I got to do something.
This has been going on for too long.
Some people can do it.
My sugar and carbohydrate addiction always draws me back for a few days or more at a time and then I go back on diet faithfully but always it happens again a few days or a few weeks or a few months later.
Again and again.
Time after time.
Again and again and then I pig out when I do it because I know I'm going to go right back on diet and have little or no sugars or carbohydrates again.
Compulsive eating disorder.
This routine has become a habit in itself.
It is destroying my health both mental and physical.
I'm going to try eating more carbs and sugars in my diet.
Still high fat low carb but not low low carb as much.
Plenty of meat and fat but some vegetables and other starches and sugars in moderation.
Atkins 1972 but not "Induction" only.
The second and third phases like he recommended.
Adding moderate and low carbs back in to some extent.
I got to break this bingeing cycle.
This should do it.
It's killing me.
I got one foot in the grave.
My cholesterol almost doubled to almost 400 this last test a few days ago.
396 to be exact.
I'm eating to much fat.
My addiction is so severe I cannot live on too low of carbs.
I'm totally carb dependent.
Zero carb and low low carb works great if you can stay on it.
My addiction is to great.
I lost all my weight eating moderate carbohydrates and didn't binge.
I was down 119# pounds doing this.
I'm only down 68# right now.
My high was 368# nine years ago.
I was down to 248# about six years ago.
I weight 300# right now.
I'm five feet nine inches tall.
Two or three average meals a day with moderate to low carbohydrates but not zero or low low extreme all the time.
Heroin addiction is this bad.
I have been sugar and hybrid carbohydrate and milk addicted since I was a little baby.
I'm seventy years old now.
Just like everybody else I was made addicted by my mother to sugars and milk and hybrid carbohydrates as soon as I was leaving the tit.
She never had a clue nor her mother before her or her mother before that.
The difference between me and everybody else is that nobody else tries to break their addiction.
I can tell you this.
It's damn near impossible.
Substantially reducing sugars and carbohydrates can be done.
It's health benefits are enormous.
Our world is in deep shit with all this stimulant addiction.
Nobody knows it.
I'm easily zero caffeine and zero alcohol and zero nicotine and zero everything else, even including zero gambling.
This sugar addiction has got me.
It will take me and everybody else to the grave.
The more sugars and hybrid carbohydrates you eat the earlier the grave and the more suffering until you finally die.
Natures natural sugars and starches are nothing like this.
We are all hopelessly addicted.
Till death do us part.